Did someone say cold front? YAY

I would really love some cooler weather. I love fall. Not just love but LOVE. Cooler weather, pumpkin muffins, pumpkin lattes, open windows, fresh cool air.. I love the changing colors of nature, although here in Texas where I live we don't see much of that, but what I do see makes me happy. Makes me miss my hometown. And its Friday!! YAY.

I finally made the decision to stay at my job. The thought of those hours, and not having insurance for 3 months and no paid time off along with high costing insurance I decided I would be stupid to leave right now. 11 hour days 5 days a week would leave me more grandbaby time, but very little "me" time which I need and honestly that would just leave my mind way to much time to wander. Something I don't need. I need to keep my mind busy. The lack of benefits could leave me with some very high medical bills and I do not need that. Hopefully nothing like that would happen but one never knows.

Now for the good news!!! this morning stepped on the scale and it said******229.8***** I have finally broken through to the 20's!  My band is making it clear to me that it is the boss. I am wise to listen because it is very uncomfortable when I don't. I do not want to throw up anymore, and cause my band to slip.  I did much better not over eating yesterday. Not a perfect day by far, but better. I have found that eating the same things help. To much variety sends me to over eating. I have been very happy with my dinner of refried beans, a scrambled egg with shredded cheese and some Louisiana hot sauce. YUM. Catwoman is  wanting to go out to eat this weekend. I am trying to avoid that as I have not enjoyed that much usually have spend most of the time in the bathroom and feeling awful. If I do end up going out I will just tell her that it has to be some place that has soup. Oh yes.. and back to my new favorite dinner. I may have mentioned this before, but a can of refried beans lasts for 5-6 days.. lol. before I would have at that whole can or at least 3/4 of it. I am spending so little money on food these days its crazy. That is one thing about the band is you really do have to learn to shop in a different way. At least for me, the more food I have the more I eat. I am trying to plan better and think ahead and be real with myself when I shop. Buying a 6 pack of avocados at Sam's does not make sense anymore. Buying in BULK doesn't either.

So... I will report back in on Monday and see where my weight is then. I really need to get walking with this cooler weather. Will make me feel so much better and maybe help me to deal with stress better as this has been a big problem for me in the last few months. I am pretty grouchy. Food use to be the thing that soothed me and overall was my medication. I cant medicate with food and be successful with this band. A topic for another day needs to be how I feel inside with the weight loss. I guess I thought that when I lost some weight I would magically turn into one of these glowing, beautiful weight loss stories. But I don't feel like that at all. I love that I have lost weight, but seriously need to learn to deal with LIFE. What do I need to do to feel serentity???? Any ideas anyone??? Well ??

Have a great weekend! I plan to