Great news. Went to my doctors appointment and my weight was 227!!! Finally broke into the 20's seems like getting into the transition to the next lower number is always so hard for me. But I realized today that I am nearly half way to my goal of 100 lbs lost and already half way  past the goal the doctor made for me to lose 80 lbs the first year!! Whew.. That realization did wonders for my self esteem. I am really happy about that. Makes my band being a little to tight for comfort worth it- I think its better for my band to be too tight then my pants! I am not sure if my band is to tight or if the problems is more of me not following the  band rules. I have a hard time slowing down to eat. Still eat like a starving puppy, and I forget to chew, chew, chew. And eating a cup of food at a time-- well I fully admit that I have not really measured-EVER. I have paid for this with throwing up, PB and general discomfort. I think I am learning ever so slowly to adjust my habits. Realize now that I can't get up and just eat what ever jumps at me from the refrigerator. I will pay by throwing up and that's if I am lucky. If not lucky it will just be stuck and really uncomfortable for hours. I guess this is BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION. Eating meat-- probably not really something I will be doing to much of. BUT my clothes fit, loosely, Walking in heels does not make my toes scream for 2 days, and I just feel better. (Most days) I still have days where this is really hard mentally. I want to dive head first into the nearest bag of chips, but am able to eat small amts of most foods and be satisfied. If anyone ever says that weight loss surgery is easy-- I will probably punch them right in the nose!! This has not been easy. And I still have 40 lbs more to go this year. I would do this again and again. I see women that are really over weight and I resist the urge to tell them about lap band surgery. I never knew about the band. Its so weird because I am a nurse and had spent hours searching online for my weight loss answer so many hours. I only found out by a fluke when I ready a book by Carnie Wilson and I looked it up online and was like WTF!! How did I not know about this ??? I bought that book at a crazy sale at the library, all the books you can fit in a bag for 3.00- wow. And it took 6 months from then to get my surgery. I had to pay out of my pocket because my insurance does not cover it. I would love to tell someone and help them to get the surg. But not sure that it would be appreciated so I say nothing. So I am slowly learning about really making this band work for me.
Just re-reading this makes me teary. Thankful, and happy for all that has happened in this last year. Its not been easy up to this point, and I don't imagine the next months ahead will be easy.. When I think of how far I have come it feels like a miracle =))) 
I hope that if anyone is reading this that is not banded yet learns something from my ramblings. And great news I got my first follower on my blog today! YAY!